being diagnosed with lupus threw. me. for. a. LOOP! (see what i did there?) everyone close to me, every chronic illness message board, every doctor kept saying the same thing over and over - “you’ll find a new normal!” well this piece is my response to that. dealing with lupus as a 27yo will never feel ~normal~…in 3 years, i’m supposed to be thirty, flirty and thriving…right?! so i’m going to go with this instead… i’ll probably never be normal. but dealing with chronic pain means i sometimes have to create my own worlds of color and light. it inspires me to think out loud, in bursts of technicolor and unfiltered expression.
it may not be normal, and i’m ok with that.