being diagnosed with lupus threw. me. for. a. LOOP! (see what i did there?) everyone close to me, every chronic illness message board, every doctor kept saying the same thing over and over - “you’ll find a new normal!” well this piece is my response to that. dealing with lupus as a 27yo will never feel ~normal~…in 3 years, i’m supposed to be thirty, flirty and thriving…right?! so i’m going to go with this instead… i’ll probably never be normal. but dealing with chronic pain means i sometimes have to create my own worlds of color and light. it inspires me to think out loud, in bursts of technicolor and unfiltered expression.
it may not be normal, and i’m ok with that.
"revolution romance," 2017. mixed media on canvas. 16 x 20 in.
this piece was created late november 2017. shortly after the election. my whole world had just been turned upside down.
this was a take-my-life-back sort of piece. i was comparing myself to my friends, peers, and others who seemed to have their lives so put together. this made me feel completely and utterly lost. what was i doing? i moved to new york to be an artist, but it seemed like i was just too far behind. it seemed everyone around me was doing what they knew they wanted to do and had known since college. meanwhile, my degree was unrelated to my first job and my first job was unrelated to my dreams. it took going through old works, old scraps, journal entries, and good old self-reflection for me to realize how far i truly had come. so i made a piece out of those things. every item in this piece is from something i had created in the past or collected along the way. this piece would physically not be in existence if not for each and every choice i've made. going left instead of right. accepting that job, leaving that job, accepting that other job, leaving that other job. making what i thought were wrong decisions and steps backward actually propelled me forward. there are lots of hidden symbols in this piece, and it's not just a self-portrait, but a pledge of acceptance for who i am. i am my scraps!
mixed media on wood, 6.7 x 5 ft. made for Cloudreach NYC.
2017. oil on canvas. 30x40 in. SOLD.
photos of photos of drawings of drawings of self
i was brought into this project after the initial rabbit collage on the front cover was created by one of the band members' mothers. After completing my initial task - which was the front side typography / layout - i was then asked to stay on to create the backside, as well as the disc cover.